Back to Work

It's Monday and I am back to work.

Surprisingly, I am actually being pretty productive today. "Whoa," I thought to myself... can't have that happen. So naturally, what do you think happened next? Of course, I decided to take a break and blog for a minute.

As a departure from my usual blog... I guess I don't really have any particular point in mind today. Just a few random thoughts for the day....

...Random Thought 1... boy did i have a great vacation this weekend... nothing like nice weather, a little shopping, good food, fun people, and good conversation.

...Random Thought 2... life is moving both too quickly and too slowly... I really wish that some things would just go away... and along those same lines, I really need to slow down, smell the roses and enjoy life.

...Random Thought 3... beer is good... what makes beer better is a good friend or two to enjoy it with.

...Random Thought 4... I am NOT cryptic. Mysterious, yes. Cryptic, no.

...Random Thought 5... As it turns out, I am not as patient as I previously thought. Oh, i can wait. I have been. But honestly... isn't enough, enough?

...Random Thought 6... Don't fuck with me. I really do have a Sicilian temper. It may take a while, but when I am finally pushed to the limit, you won't be happy.

...Random Thought 7... Damn, the weather is nice today...

...Random Thought 8... People who act like assholes do it for a reason. Simply, they are assholes. At one point I thought that there was no way some people could be THAT stupid. As it turns out, they are not that stupid... they are simply assholes. Recently, I have deal with a couple... personally and professionally. I hope that someday they get treated as poorly as they treat others.

...Random Thought 9... I don't talk in circles. I do however always try to establish my point, then support my point with relevant statements and examples. Thank god there are people out there who get that....

...Random Thought 10... If I work hard, I will meet my goal. My goal is to be better than you. How do you feel about that?

...Random Thought 11... I've met some really nice new friends lately... I am looking forward to getting to know you better!

...Random Thought 12... When is my new car gonna get here?

...Random Thought 13... Apparently good things really do come to those who wait... I have gotten a couple really interesting phone calls and emails today! Nice! Now say it with cash!

Okay, I think I've pretty much exhausted the thoughts rolling around in my brain today... I really should get back to being productive.

"We Need to Talk."

Why do those four words inspire a sense of dread for everyone hears them? And why does a pit develop in the stomach of everyone who must utter them? Whatever the reason, they seem to be an unpleasant prelude to some tough conversation.

Four simple words... "We Need to Talk..." they usually end up being the catalyst of some big complex messy situation. Even the most innocuous of circumstances always seems enlarged with the addition of those words. Even the smallest problem seems amplified by them.

I've uttered them myself a few times. I always had the best intentions. I always thought that if I was just honest, whatever the concern was would just be recognized, worked on, and ultimately would go away. Maybe it was me, maybe it wasn't, but overall... it's never worked out that way.

As soon as the words are spoken, we immediately try to shield ourselves against the storm that just may be brewing. We try to review what on earth it is that we could have done wrong. What happened? Can it be fixed? Or is it the start of a bigger problem?

We start preparing our mental defenses to be and try to be ready for the worst case scenario. Am I in trouble? Am I getting fired? Am I spending the night on the couch or is the relationship in trouble? Is it over?

So it's no surprise that when I heard the words not once, but twice today from two different people, my stomach automatically started twisting and my head started spinning.

The second person who said that to me followed up the first four words with "you don't have anything to be concerned about". I've heard nothing more on the topic... yet.

The first person who uttered those words today resolved themselves kinda quickly and it turned out to be a big non-event. In fact, I even feel a little silly for being nervous.

So now I am waiting... and wondering. What could it be? Am I over-reacting? I guess it wouldn't be the first time. Although, I'm mentally preparing for the worst, I'm hoping the outcome ends up being just as big of a non-event as the first.

Time to play the waiting game, I guess.